Well today is an interesting day... I am having to get off my anti-depressants soon and have been worried to death about what is going to happen to me. Today is day 2 of going from 225 mg to 150 mg, I can feel the anxiety rising in my chest but I am trying to hold it at bay for just a little while. I don't want the storm to keep churning but at the moment if I have any hopes of making it out of this alive I need to keep some of my wits. Instead of finishing out the 2 weeks off 225 mg I am going to try to wean myself off over the next 2-3 weeks. Do I still need the medication? YES, but I don't have that option so instead of certain death I am going to try to prolong my agony just a little longer. Hopefully then I can get all my ducks in a row and figure out what to do next. One day at a time right? Well screw that! I am going to take it one hour at a time for now, so I may get better, I may get worse but at least I will be getting somewhere!

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