Well... I somehow made it to 32, Happy Birthday to me! While I can in all honesty say 31 sucked
I am hoping 32 will be a bit kinder on me. During the last year I lost my illusions of life and the part
of myself that was always fighting for a better life. I lost my mind then my job, my self worth and
twice I almost lost my life to the hands of myself. It had seemed like the last ten years of my life 
had gone to waste and was for nothing, I just wanted to give up on everything that was left.
However with those who loved me fighting for me while I couldn't and those who didn't know me
but were willing to show me and my family kindness I was somehow able to make it to see the age
of 32. There is still a long road ahead and I am hoping that I am out of the worst of it. I am trying
to find out who I am and what I am made of. I am learning to stand up for myself while standing up
for what is right at the same time. I am learning that I am worth something and that I do not always
need to put my needs behind everyone elses. Granted I am only LEARNING these things, I didn't say
I was always remembering them.  

So thank you to all of those who were willing to help me and be there for me. To get me through
the hardest parts and to those who on a day to day basis are willing to put up with my crying,
moods  and what I do to myself. Those who have listened to me in my darkest hours, without
question or judgement. Those who love me without question and are showing me each day that I am
worth more then what I believed I was. One day I will repay you, somehow.

And to one very special woman who fought so hard for me, who helped me without reason.
The woman who showed me that I was not alone and that there are others out there who are
still willing to help others without expecting anything in return. You will always be my angel or fairy
Godmother. *chuckles*

Without these people I wouldn't be writing this at all so to all of them, Thank you
and to most... I Love you guys! Roll on 2009!  

And now for the story of my life.....